Trying Times

I have worked every day since August 13 - Every. Day.

I posted last week about my busy August with move-in and Welcome Week programs and the like.  Which is all very true and very tiring...but when I talked about getting myself back on track, I forgot that I made a dumb move and also scheduled duty for the first weekend.  I was quite lucky, actually, that I didn't have any "big" issues.  I was not so lucky that I had a whole lot of "little" issues....a lot.  Sometimes I'm not sure which I'd rather have.  I mean nobody really likes to have to deal with the big issues, but getting constant calls for little ones is exhausting!

I had the best intentions of getting myself back on a normal schedule, but duty can throw off the most established schedule and then turn around and laugh at it!  You never know when you're going to be needed, so you can't really do much.  You can't really cook because you might be in the middle of making something when you need to go.  You can't go out to eat because you could get called before your food even gets there.  You can't get in a workout because it isn't really professional to show up to help a student when you're all sweaty in workout clothes.  So, basically, I sat on the couch watching tv when I wasn't answering phone calls or going to meet the police somewhere, and eating mostly sandwiches and snacks.

By Tuesday I figured I didn't have a very successful week.  I had gotten in walking where I could - actually opting to walk to some of my calls over in one of the other areas instead of driving over.  Made the best food choices I could - although most of the weekend I felt like eating pretty much everything in sight.  All in all, I knew it was just an okay week.  I didn't go totally overboard on unhealthy stuff, but I also struggled to keep my spirits up.

I am just so tired.  I am still very motivated to keep up my new lifestyle - still very motivated to keep losing weight - still feeling great about myself.  But I am physically and mentally exhausted.  I am so excited to actually have this weekend off to get myself back in a good place.  Last Friday I was able to take the afternoon off of work and I walked downtown and had a delicious Indian lunch (prob not great on the points, but I was so full I didn't really eat much of a dinner so it balanced out!), walked through the Farmers Market and bought some awesome local veggies and honey, then walked back home.  It was just what I needed at the time to get my head right for the weekend.  So, I'm hoping that having Saturday and Sunday off to get away from campus a little, and not having to worry about getting woken up at any hour of the night, will be just the ticket to get back to myself...and back on the road to success.

I was surprised that my weigh-in wasn't that bad - though pleasantly surprised, and it probably helped keep me from going too far to the dark side this week.  And, trust me, it could have been bad...


Initial weight: 257.2
Week 34: -1.2
Total weight loss: -52.4
Current weight: 204.8