Back to the Grind

So I got back to work this past week.

The week was a little difficult - we had very limited places to eat during the day and pulling 12 hour days made it hard to get to the store to do any real shopping other than basic necessities. Seriously, my fridge still only has milk, eggs, bread, yogurt, and a few fruits and veggies in it!  Hopefully this weekend I'll be able to get out and fill her up so that Mother Hubbards cupboards won't be so bare!

The other piece that made it hard was that not only did the 12 hour days also make it hard to get in some exercise, but since the students weren't actually here for most of the week, the gym had very limited hours...when it was even open.  Now, don't get me wrong, I could have made a bigger effort to do things outside of the gym, but I didn't and I can't go back and change that now.

One of the things that has been an important, albeit difficult, lesson to learn (and one on which I'm still learning) is not beating yourself up over choices you've made in the past.  Sometimes when I weigh in and the scale doesn't really go in my favor I sit and think of all the choices I could have made better that week.  The "where did I go wrong?" almost always comes out (unless it's an expected gain).  You think about every single day and what you ate and what exercise you did...or didn't do.  "I know I could have worked out a little longer on that day."  "I shouldn't have eaten that one cookie." Oooohhhh if the world were built on shoulda, coulda, wouldas.  The fact is: I didn't and I did.  And I just have to learn to live with the decisions I make, let them go after I've made them, and move on and do better next time.

Now, don't get this post wrong...I didn't have THAT bad of a week, but sometimes I need a reminder to quit beating myself up.  Sometimes we ALL need to quit beating ourselves up.  Stop it, people!  Play nice!

Initial weight: 257.2
Week 52: +1.2 (Officially 1 year! Woohoo!)
Total weight loss: -55.4
Current weight: 201.8