How did I let this happen?! I worked so hard to get it off in the first place. I learned so many things about losing it and keeping it off...what happened?! And then I realized that it wasn't that it was hard to keep the weight off...but it was SO EASY to fall back into old bad habits! And that's what it comes down to. Life happened...and I let it get the better of me. It threw a whole pile of rocks in my path and I stumbled over all of them.
Some days I get really frustrated with myself for letting things get out of hand...for folding under the pressure...for being the kind of person who eats her feelings. And some days I remember just how much stress I was under and even I can't blame myself!
My life has been pretty unstable for the last year and I'm just now finding my footing again. My job contract came to a close and I ended up having to move home because I hadn't found a new job yet. I spent the past year looking for a new job and getting lots of rejections (when the school even bothered to respond to me at all). It was really difficult! I mean, it sucks basically being told you're not good enough over and over and over again. And being unemployed/underemployed, you'd think I would've had PLENTY of time on my hands to get in some exercise and watch what I was eating. And I did have the time...but I threw myself a year long pity party instead.
But, the reality is that it happened and now I have to deal with it. Now my life is on some solid ground...I'm back at Penn State, although it's temporary. And while I don't have a solid plan for what comes next, I have a rough plan and lots of people who have offered help to make that plan happen...which is a pretty great feeling. So now it's time to get other parts of my life back on track too.
This time around I've decided to try something different. I'm still a firm believer in the Weight Watchers plan, but we all know that I sucked at keeping track of my points. I've heard some great things about the various BeachBody programs and personally know a number of people who have been successful doing one, or more, of their plans. So, thanks to some encouragement from an old friend of mine, I've decided to try doing the 21-day Fix...and Shakeology....doing both was a deal.
In essence the "fix" is quite similar to WW - you watch your portion sizes and make sure that you're eating a balance of the food groups. The method is just a little different and focuses a bit more on clean eating (i.e. no junk) while also providing specific 30 minute exercises to do each day as well. Adding in the Shakeology is an extra way to make sure you get in the vitamins and nutrients your body needs...not a necessity, but I figured I would at least try it out.
This time around I've decided to try something different. I'm still a firm believer in the Weight Watchers plan, but we all know that I sucked at keeping track of my points. I've heard some great things about the various BeachBody programs and personally know a number of people who have been successful doing one, or more, of their plans. So, thanks to some encouragement from an old friend of mine, I've decided to try doing the 21-day Fix...and Shakeology....doing both was a deal.
In essence the "fix" is quite similar to WW - you watch your portion sizes and make sure that you're eating a balance of the food groups. The method is just a little different and focuses a bit more on clean eating (i.e. no junk) while also providing specific 30 minute exercises to do each day as well. Adding in the Shakeology is an extra way to make sure you get in the vitamins and nutrients your body needs...not a necessity, but I figured I would at least try it out.
So ladies and gents, here goes nothing. Today is Day 1. My Journey To A Thinner Me....Take 2
Starting Weight: 254.4
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